My HERO, MY IDOL & MY BEST FATHER!

Death is the most unexpected occurrence in this world. Death is the end point of Life in this living world.

I am not really afraid of death for myself but the fear of losing the life of any of my family member is the greatest fear of mine which I don't want to imagine. But when the reality strikes, we can't really stop it because all we have in this world are only borrowed from God.

Now my greatest fear has come, He now get back the borrowed life of my dearest Father whom I considered as my HERO, IDOL & the BEST FATHER! My Tatay (father) is my 50% Strength, Hope and Inspiration in life. The pain and longing I am suffering now is the worst I ever had in my whole life. :( No words can describe it and no medicine can cure it for now. But I still believe the saying that "Time will Heal Everything".

My Fortress and Strength!

It hurts me so much because of the idea that I can't see him forever and the plans we build together will not be seen by him. He is my ultimate mentor in dealing life struggle and my ultimate motivator in pursuing my dreams. He is not the powerful man nor a man of highest profession but he is the man I know with great dignity, respect, courage, pure heart and intelligence. Any Negative? NO! He is just so PERFECT for me. 

I feel the "GUILT" of losing him without giving him the full medication he should deserved even if he cannot make it in the end. He never bother us during his needs but for our needs, he is there for us 100%. Do you know someone like that now??? Tatay is like our savior too same as Jesus Christ because he can sacrifice everything for the sake of his family that even his life, he is willing to give. See the evidence now... :-( ...Too bad he did it without informing us.I can say that my father has done his role in this world exemplary and that is why God get him back so soon. The sad truth is, he cannot anymore see and feel the fruit of his hardwork by the time we can materialize his dreams and plans. I feel pity of him because he never experienced the stability of living instead he was living in a life that is full of struggles and sacrifice. Its very unfair of him to end like that but I'm sure God has its purpose and I hope it will sink faster in my mind and heart. Honestly I really felt bad of everything. I keep on blaming myself and I have lots of regrets. I know I have nothing to do with the past anymore and I should accept it.

To my Tatay:


I love you so much 1, 000 000x! ♥♥♥    Thank you for all the Love, Care, Sacrifice, Guidance and Wisdom you bestowed us. I haven't said this to you personally but I hope you can read this  "You are the BEST FATHER in this world!!". Sorry for all the problems, disappointments and pain we give you. I really wish that we can be together for so long....but sad to say you left first. I am not mad of you but I am ashamed that I have not paid you even a half of your efforts to us. I hope I have been a good daughter to you. I hope you are happy now on where you are now and I hope you are resting peacefully which you really deserve. Please do not anymore bother yourself on thinking what will happen to us here because we will help each other if any problem comes in our family. I just want to request to you to please guide us on the right way especially in every decision we make in life. Please be always our Guardian Angel!! Again I LOVE YOU and  I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER!!!

Now Life must Go on.....What I learned from this experienced is "Every second counts and make the most of it in showing love to your love ones! "

God Bless Us All!