Happiness is the Foundation of my World Existence

My annual tribute for my world existence was once again occurs last July 12, 2012.   It  was always my best day of the year as I always feel the love of all the people who surrounds me and even those who had been part of my memorable 26 years.

Of course, before anything else I would like to thank God for the priceless gift she lend me which is my LIFE and my FAMILY who really complete me as perfect a human being.  Until this time I cannot think of what perfect word I can say to God aside from "Thank You" which can express how I am gratitude of giving a chance to be "Me" on this world. I can't ask for more or regret any what happen to me because all what happen in my life was a blessing and my learning's too.

For this birthday of mine, I celebrate my natal day with this theme " Happiness is my Foundation of my World's Existence". As I realized that it maybe impossible for me to live this long and contented if I was never happy which is really impossible for the human race but the happiness that I feel now is the absolute one! Why absolute??? Because even if I encountered challenges in life, I still manage to overcome it and most of all I am able to smile every end of the day. It makes me complete because of the pure happiness I always felt.

I'd like to say Kudos! to my main contributor of my Happiness in this world namely; my dearest Family (Mother, brothers, sisters & nieces), my beloved deceased Father, my Friends, my relatives, my board-mates and my workmates. For these are the people who truly fill my heart with the absolute happiness that I only wished for. To my family including my dearest Tatay in heaven, thank you for always be my inspiration and my precious wealth. You will be no. 1 supporter and strength and this is only I can promise you, I will never never get tired of loving you and care you as long as I live. I love you so much..muaahhhh :) :-*.

To my Friends & boardmates, thank you for the fun moments we always shares and the gimick we always treasured. To my relatives, thank you for the respect, trust and love you showed me. I always value that because you are my second family who 100% support me in all the decision I made. To my workmates, thank you for listening my jokes and accepting my opinions in a sweet way.

Lastly to my beloved father in heaven, thank you for the living teachings and inspiration which I always applied in my everyday life. You will always be my no. 1 Idol! Thank You!

Now, back to counting of 365 days until  my another best day of my life comes again... :-))

Embracing the Dream World

This is it! The power leap I imagined for almost 4 years and now here I am but not exactly the correct position of x & y axis. Well, that's alright as I am always positive of all things that may happen in my life.

Looking  at the bright side of it, I have successfully taking the risk of transferring another working environment that I've always wish for. At this moment, I cannot tell 100% that it is my home now but rather I am still adjusting and learning its real environment. It is very inspiring though but not totally drag my interest of striving hard to absorb the knowledge and skills that I lack of for many years. I'm sure it may take time and the right timing is not yet happening but eventually we will meet each other at the right time and in the right place. :)

But the thing that I am sure of right now, is that I am happy and still having fun. I'm still hoping that it will be continuous and very fulfilling in the coming years. I can surely ride on the rough and sweet times of this journey as I have a very supportive family, friends and my guardian angel above "My Tatay".

Kudos! to all the people who believe in me and support me all this time. Thank You!!!! I promise that I will take good care of that trust & love you bestowed in me and it will always serve as my strength in my wonderful journey!

My HERO, MY IDOL & MY BEST FATHER!

Death is the most unexpected occurrence in this world. Death is the end point of Life in this living world.

I am not really afraid of death for myself but the fear of losing the life of any of my family member is the greatest fear of mine which I don't want to imagine. But when the reality strikes, we can't really stop it because all we have in this world are only borrowed from God.

Now my greatest fear has come, He now get back the borrowed life of my dearest Father whom I considered as my HERO, IDOL & the BEST FATHER! My Tatay (father) is my 50% Strength, Hope and Inspiration in life. The pain and longing I am suffering now is the worst I ever had in my whole life. :( No words can describe it and no medicine can cure it for now. But I still believe the saying that "Time will Heal Everything".

My Fortress and Strength!

It hurts me so much because of the idea that I can't see him forever and the plans we build together will not be seen by him. He is my ultimate mentor in dealing life struggle and my ultimate motivator in pursuing my dreams. He is not the powerful man nor a man of highest profession but he is the man I know with great dignity, respect, courage, pure heart and intelligence. Any Negative? NO! He is just so PERFECT for me. 

I feel the "GUILT" of losing him without giving him the full medication he should deserved even if he cannot make it in the end. He never bother us during his needs but for our needs, he is there for us 100%. Do you know someone like that now??? Tatay is like our savior too same as Jesus Christ because he can sacrifice everything for the sake of his family that even his life, he is willing to give. See the evidence now... :-( ...Too bad he did it without informing us.I can say that my father has done his role in this world exemplary and that is why God get him back so soon. The sad truth is, he cannot anymore see and feel the fruit of his hardwork by the time we can materialize his dreams and plans. I feel pity of him because he never experienced the stability of living instead he was living in a life that is full of struggles and sacrifice. Its very unfair of him to end like that but I'm sure God has its purpose and I hope it will sink faster in my mind and heart. Honestly I really felt bad of everything. I keep on blaming myself and I have lots of regrets. I know I have nothing to do with the past anymore and I should accept it.

To my Tatay:


I love you so much 1, 000 000x! ♥♥♥    Thank you for all the Love, Care, Sacrifice, Guidance and Wisdom you bestowed us. I haven't said this to you personally but I hope you can read this  "You are the BEST FATHER in this world!!". Sorry for all the problems, disappointments and pain we give you. I really wish that we can be together for so long....but sad to say you left first. I am not mad of you but I am ashamed that I have not paid you even a half of your efforts to us. I hope I have been a good daughter to you. I hope you are happy now on where you are now and I hope you are resting peacefully which you really deserve. Please do not anymore bother yourself on thinking what will happen to us here because we will help each other if any problem comes in our family. I just want to request to you to please guide us on the right way especially in every decision we make in life. Please be always our Guardian Angel!! Again I LOVE YOU and  I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER!!!

Now Life must Go on.....What I learned from this experienced is "Every second counts and make the most of it in showing love to your love ones! "

God Bless Us All!